March 30, 2012.
I, Sapina Snowball, dropped out. It sounds so wrong.
There are no words to explain how disappointed I am with myself. I was kind of afraid that I had to confront people about it and I did not know how to deal with the fact that I am dropping out of school. It was an emotional time for me and it still is... I don't know what to do. After I had to make arrangements to go home, I felt empty. I didn't know what to feel, I didn't know what to say, I didn't know how to act, I wasn't myself. I have never put myself in this kind of stuff.
All my life, I have been a good student. I was great, I was confident. I could pull off all A's. I have never failed a course. I have never failed a semester. Everyone practically expected me to do good educationally. Back in high school, people would say "this girl will do great things and make us proud." It feels like I have disappointed so many people I have crossed paths with because of the fact that I am failing and dropping out of University...
Why did I "fail?" Well, I blame myself for this. I could have done better, but I didn't really take it seriously. It is really hard to change lifestyles. It has been hard for me since the beginning. When I started off from college, it was hard. I struggled on my first semester, but there was help so I made it through. Transition to University was different and more challenging. All the professors expects you to do world-class assignments. I handed in what I thought was world-class work, but got a response that I am not fit for any of this. So, I got discouraged. I didn't want to face my professors anymore. I didn't want to write a paragraph. I could have done better, but I just sat on my ass and just felt discouraged. I regret it, but I hope you don't follow the same path as I did.. There is always a better path!!! I will get back to it, I will get bak to school and finish what I have started!!!!!!
I will not stop, I will not stop school, I will continue. Right now, I am figuring out what to do, but I know that I want to work with the Youth and put then on the right path and inspire them that there are great things in the world and that there is a way out of the negative path. There are so many things to do in life!!!!! I hope to see the Inuit do great things to this world!! Things are changing!! Great things are changing!!! I can see that!!! I am hoping that it still continues!!! There is this big planet to share with!!! <3
